Bianca Del Rio
I’m so tired of helping people that don’t want to help themselves. That apparently I will never understand them because of reasons like age difference or because I’m engaged. People don’t understand that I’ve been through a lot in my life and I know how a lot of things work. I didn’t go to the doctors growing up, I didn’t have that person to talk to about everything and watch over me like a mother should. The only person I had was myself and people that would be there temporarily. I use to be so codependent to people when I was a child but after going through shit it’s made me stronger and it took a lot for me to get where I am now. I used to cry myself to sleep 2-3 times a week, I use to take pills to fall asleep every other day, and once in awhile I would self harm whether it would be cutting, starving, or binging. & for people to tell me, “You just don’t get it.” And continue to dwell in their life errors absolutely disgusts me. For once, people think my life is actually perfect and I’m actually offended for them thinking that because it has never been perfect. I just woke up one day and decided to be happy and love myself. I still fail quite often, and I sometimes let myself fall into depression, but I still find the light back to that door. I’ve made sacrifices to having the life I have now, and a big part of it is distancing myself with family. I just wish people would listen to my advice and quit thinking I’m a know it all bitch. I’m so hurt right now thinking that I have close relationships with people and then finding out things and just feeling backstabbed from it.
So im basically fucked ahout beating the ultimate lair because I dont have an elixir
Fucking great, juuuust great